So, I find myself in a place in my life where I can make a decision on what I really want to do with my life. I made a decision to go back to school for ultrasound. I’m fine with that decision. I think that can be something that I can do and enjoy. But as I watch tv, I can’t help but desire my old goal. I always wanted to be an actress. I moved to L.A. to pursue, but gave it up for the wrong reason. After I had children, I just figured it was too late to start over with it.
But, I love acting. I know I’m good at it. I want to act! This is more than just some thing I think I will be good at that I’m really not good at. I love the feeling of acting, being on stage, on camera. It’s indescribable. But I just don’t want to fail at another thing. Or give up on another thing.
I don’t want to be 50 years old and still living from pay check to pay check. But I also don’t want to be 50 years old and never reach my full potential.
But, with children, I have to be more practical. I have to find a job that is going to keep the bills paid and a roof over my kids’ head.
Dream vs. Reality?